Wow... the doctor felt my baby

Hi, I just came back from my Gynae. I thought he is going to be a super old guy. But no, probably in his 50s. There was a student doctor in his room. I was abit nervous. I mean, who knows if the doctor is quite nasty.

We introduced and Dr McKenna started asking me a few questions. Like if i got any allergies etc.. He looked quite serious but then luckily Fred was with me. He loves to talk to people, so cracked a few jokes and there.

The cool part out of this whole visit was ... he pressed my tummy and he felt the baby. To be honest I was abit scared. How can you press my tummy? What if he squashed the foetus?? Anyway he felt it... and I thought it was cool. I wonder if I can press it myself. He also felt my bloatedness, saying it was normal. So I guess the question that still ponders in me from time to time... I really have a baby inside me!!!!!!!! Yes, sometimes I wonder if there is actually. I still can't imagine one day I wake up and my tummy becomes really huge. How am I going to sleep? How am I going to hug Fred? How am I going to look at my face in the mirror over the basin?

Guess I'm being silly. It was a good visit after all. I will be seeing him once a month in future.

It's Friday already?

Woah... time really passes by fast during winter. It feels good I guess.

Today I will be seeing my Gynae for the first time. I'm about 10 weeks now!!! Isn't that fast? I don't really know what the Gynae will do, will let you know after that eh.

Not sure anyone knows. Just about 2-3 weeks ago, there was this major gas explosion in Western Australia. It was so bad that many companies had to close shop and pretty much stopped working. Everyone, including my office had to try to cut down on energy. So right now, I'm freezing my ass off at work. I think it is about 20 degrees and it is SOOOO cold!!!!!!

Oh, today is the 20th. My contract ends on the 27th. How nice! That means I will finish my contract next Friday and I will be ... doing nothing!??!!? Really man, not sure what is happening to my job. It is just waiting and waiting.

I'm just happy working here, just my stupid boss. Yesterday, we got a meeting at HQ at 3pm. He said he was going. But at 2:30pm, he walked in (after disappearing for 1.5 hrs) and started eating a fruit (looking soo relaxed). I asked him if he was still going. He said "maybe, later". So obviously I had to take a bus to go there myself. When I reached HQ, sat down for 2 mins. I SAW HIM WALKING IN !!!!! WTF!!!!!!! He could have just tell me to wait for him for 5 mins right? Anyway he is a complete idiot and a jerk! Not that I mind taking the bus, it just doesn't look very nice.

Anyway, enough of complaining. I can't wait for Lindy to arrive tomorrow. I wonder where to take her. Then again, I hope I feel completely free from morning sickness tomorrow and Sunday.

My fingers are freezing from the cold as I typed. In 40 mins, I will be out of here to see my Gynae. My boss is not in today!!!!! Woo hoo!!! I might just go home and nap ahahha.

What should I say?

So many things to blog!! Where to start??

Friday

Work.. sucks.. actually its my boss. I woke up and really didn't feel like working. Instead, I rang up my hq and complained about my manager. I think I was crazy. But then again, it was the right thing to do. I made an appointment to meet up with my boss at HQ on Monday. For the rest of the day, I was thinking, pondering if I did the right thing.

Saturday

Lindy was here! She asked me to wake her up at 12 but I didn't. Cos I felt really ill again. And at 12:30, we were supposed to bring a dish to a 2 year old party. Obviously couldn't get up to make anything. But managed to attend the party. Lindy rang at 1:30pm, complaining why I didn't wake up her. Though a good thing, cos she had migraine in the morning. MIgraine sucks!

Migraine will not stop Lindy from shopping. We met up with her at 3ish, and did a bit of shopping and had some coffee time. Dinner was early, obviously I was starving at 6pm. We had viet beef noodles. So far that's my comfort food!

Sunday

A lazy day. It was pouring outside. I stayed at home with Lindy. Fred made me breakfast before he left to church. We lunch at Emmas Dim sum. The queue was so long. Duno why people must eat out when it is raining. If I can cook, I would. Still it is not the time for me yet. I was gonna faint waiting for our turn!

Again, shopping at Supre and then coffee. The day was so boring. Poor Lindy. So we went back home while I eat again!!!!! And Lindy had a nap. Sigh... Honestly hate winter. plus morning sickness!!!!

Monday

I met up with my big boss. It was such a scary experience. But I have to be professional and told him all the happenings. I haven't been abused.. but rather treated unfairly. He was great and offer alot of comfort. Sorry, I dun really dare to say what actually happened. Who knows who is reading this lol. Maybe let the matter rest for a bit.. then I will talk about it next time :P

Today

I heard a story today from a friend. It is real and very very unfortunate. Imagine one day you wake up, and realised everything was a lie. The person whom you've always been sleeping with, is a total stranger. Such things happen in movies. You will never think it can happen to you. When everything was so perfect, marriage, house, a baby... the man you loved was someone else. When you thought the signs were imagination, you had depression and seeing things... it was all true.

I once saw this documentary about this lady. She was a compulsive liar. Then she became a criminal and ran away. She met up with this guy who loved her and they got married. She lied to him that she inherited alot of money from his grandparents. And later lied about having cancer. She went on shaving her hair and even the neighbourhood believed her. First of all she didn't have the money, so she has been asking money from her previous boyfriend. So that's how she lied about having cancer.

When they interviewed her, she was still lying... to the reporter about some details. It's crazy how people lied about stuff. And this is actually a disorder in personality. People go through therapy to resolve this. But I don't see how it can help. The fact is they know they are lying but they still do it.

Anyway, enough said. I feel really sorry for my friend. I hope things will become better.

Sometimes...you just have to be Thankful

Have you ever received a chain email... where it has many quotes to motivate you?

For example,

When you are upset with your job, Thank God you actually got a job.

Ok, I don't know, and cannot remember the exact quotes. But at the moment, I just feel really crap. Wished someone can email me that to motivate me.

- Morning sickness again - Thank God I'm pregnant where some couples are trying for years

- Yes, I had an arguement with my boss. So work sucks. He busted me for forwarding an email to him saying "For your actions". Sigh. Very stupid but what to do? Thank God I have a job!

- When I feel down and homesick, Thank God for Fred who is here to take all my crap.

Yesterday was pretty bad. Had a cup of yogurt and threw up after that. I was at work somemore. Luckily dinner was at in laws. If not I really don't know what to do!!! Another good news is LINDY IS COMING OVER TO PERTH!! TWICE IN A ROLL!!! WOO HOO!! Thank God for a sister!!!

Hopefully I will feel better on the weekend.

I just had lunch... feeling so sleepy now. I didn't have a good sleep last night. My right shoulder was aching. I hate the cold weather. But it will take another 3 months to warm up again. Then again, don't complain Wendy. Thank God I got warm clothes during winter.

Alright, I have nothing much to blog about really. I'm so boring...

Another episode of MS

MS = Morning sickness

Lindy arrived in Perth yesterday. What a pity! I didn't spend much time with her cos I had my MS. Sigh... she came over and cooked me some yummy food. The smell was good. Reminded me of home. Unfortunately I still didn't have much appetite.

I feel really depressed now. I just want to go home to be with my family. I feel so emotional, no idea why. It could be the hormones!!!! I feel super needy, like a child! Poor Fred and Lindy, had to tolerate my crap yesterday! I was going to buy a ticket and fly back with Lindy. But obviously it is not a wise idea since I am still working!

I'm nearly 9 weeks now. I hope this MS goes away quickly! I just have to thank God that I'm not puking! And still able to eat alittle bit.

Just had lunch and tummy still feels alittle weird. Oh, also, I have been sneezing alot recently. I'm not getting a cold or anything. Just a little weird to keep sneezing. Maybe the baby is thinking of me ahahah.

Apparently it is developing limbs now. How weird is that! haah

Bloated... or maybe just FAT!

You know, I'm only about 8 weeks, I cannot zip up my jeans. SIGH!!!

Well, I'm not the skinny type. So I do have a tummy before I got pregnant. I used to be able to hide my tummy wearing jeans but now, I got this bloatedness in me and I have the thought of squashing the baby if I zip it up.

Ok it is just not my jeans. ALL MY BOTTOMS ARE TIGHT NOW!!!!! boOhoOOO!!! sO depressing!!

So last night I went to buy some maternity bottoms! I bought this black tube thing to go round my hip so that hide my unzip jeans or bottoms! It cost me $20! I say it was expensive. I also bought a black tights (I lost mine when I really need it now!!!) and a black pair of sports pants, which can look formal. So I might wear it to work hehe!

Other than feeling bloated, I still feel alittle sick sometimes. Yes that nauseous feeling. It is not welcoming at all! I hate it! I get abit of period cramping at times. And I'm very very tired after work. Say I finish work at about 5pm, I would want to sleep at 6pm. Its crazy! But yea, I control it and after I shower, I feel much better. Really it is not a good idea. I should really take a nap when I have to. Weekend is here!! Can't wait to sleep and sleep!! Haha

You know I'm only 2 months. My dear hubby saw some cheap and good quality cots and insist on buying it. Sigh, I don't want to be negative but I'm not sure if its a good time to buy. It was really cheap at $169!! Normal price is twice as much! Anyway I told him not to buy. I still have 7 more months to go, surely there will be discount.

Some updates on my interview. I had a message from my ex boss in Singapore, saying that my company contacted him for reference. So I'm quite happy at least something is happening. Just as I am writing, my current boss got an email too. I can't wait! I want to go to Singapore!!!!! I just want to take a few days off and go!! But I don't want to go alone. Ah well...

Oh another thing, someone won $58 million lotto last night! Dammit right! $58 million!! Anyway I couldn't get over it. I had already thought of what to do with $58 million. BOoooooOO! I don't think I will buy another lotto ticket. Really I don't like such things. Arghh waste my money only!

Ultrasound II

The baby is now 1.5cm!!! The last scan showed the sac to be 3mm!! So it is growing and has a heartbeat!!

Luckily there was a long weekend. All I wanted to do was sleep and sleep and eat and eat! Monday, I had a dream eating Nasi Lemak! And I woke up. All I want was Nasi Lemak! The crap thing was that it was public holidays and many resturants were not open. Fred was really frustrated. Cos he didn't know what to do. I was so depressed. Honestly, I never had this sort of cravings until I'm pregnant. It is just crazy. I was so upset, I wanted to go back to Singapore. Luckily, Fred found a place selling Nasi Lemak in the city. I was honestly super fussy! I didn't really like it. It was not authentic enough. After eating, I went straight to bed. Hoping to dream of other food.

Yesterday, we went to have Yong Tau Foo and Fried carrot cake! Oh!! It was so good!!! It feels like home!!! The food settled comfortably in my tummy!! No complaints!!

Pregnancy is really crazy. First of all, I have to accept the fact that this little thing is living inside me! Second, I have to combat the morning sickness. Thirdly, to combat cravings when I'm in perth. It is so difficult! I'm constantly hungry. But I just can't eat much which is a pain. Then after 1.5 hrs I would be hungry again!!!!!

Fred has been eating all the leftovers. I don't know how he does it. He is probably sick of food by now.

It is 10:36Am now at work. I have eaten, a packet of LeSnack, a museli bar, about 100 g of cereal. And I'm still hungry!!!! I just want some real food. I want fried bee hoon, or a bowl of dry minced pork noodles. I WANT TO GO BACK TO SINGAPORE!!!!!!!

Sigh... I hope I get a reply on my interview soon!!!! So that I can plan my holidays!!!